Wow, it seems like it was just yesterday that I did a post on my blog on Jason's 4 year mark. I can't believe how fast time flies, and how things change. But I feel like I need to express my thoughts and feelings today, maybe this is my way of dealing with my loss....
It has been 5 years since my older brother Jason passed away. I can't believe that it has been 5 years. I was pregnant with McKinlee when Jas died, now she is 4 years old, and I have my little Hunter. I NEVER thought at that time that I would ever get over the sorrow that I felt. But I am so greatful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and for the testimony that I have. I absolutely know without a doubt that I will see Jas again, and that brings me SO much peace. I know that our Heavnely Father has a plan for us. We may not understand why things happen to us, or at times understand what the plan is, but He does have a plan, and the plan will bring us happiness. I never thought that I would be where I am today after Jas died. My testimony has grown so much, and I am such a stronger person. I realize how short life is, and that we can't sweat the small stuff. Life can be gone so quickly. Its not worth the little fights, or arguments, or even the bad days. Look on the bright side of things, and be happy. So many times, we look for the bad in situations or in people, and it's not worth it. Life is so much happier, if we look for happiness.
I am thankful for my Savior Jesus Christ and for His Atonement. I know that He lived and died for me, and that He was resurrected so that we can live together again. I know that He loves me, and is always there for me. Whenever I feel alone, I just need to remember that my Savior is always there for me.
I love my family! My parents are so strong, and I am so thankful for their strength and example, and the love they have for our family. I couldn't ask for better brothers and sister-in-laws, and I love you all! I have the best husband in the world! I love Jordan so much, he is my strength, and sure puts up with a lot from me! He is so loving, thoughtful, patient and caring. I love the dad that he is, and the way he loves McKinlee and Hunter. And I LOVE MY KIDS! What cute little munchkins! They are my joy, and I love them so much!
Thanks for letting me vent my feelings today! I love and miss you Jas! I'll see you again someday!
As many of you know, 
To make a long story short, my sweet friend Michelle came over and watched Hunter, and I picked Jordan up from work and we went to the doctor to get our first set of stitches. It was a crazy cut, and hard for them to stitch. She got 4 stitches. And I am so worried about scaring on her beautiful face! The worst part was putting the shot in to numb it, that was horrible for 
And to make things even worse, the next day one of the stitches came apart! So we had to go back in, but this time they did the "super glue" with a suture 
This was our first 
